Friday, October 31, 2014

Don't listen to a word I say

(The screams all sound the same)

You're gone, gone, gone away
I watched you disappear
All that's left is the ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
There's nothing we can do
Just let me go we'll meet again soon
Now wait, wait, wait for me
Please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep

-- monsters and men

If you want me

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
For it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes

a lover that sighs

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Fine, I'll be just fine.

Wandering empty streets
And looking into gardens
Trying not to see you in every single thing I pass.


Can I forget your love?
How can I never see you again?
How can I ever know
Why some stay, others go
When I don't
I don't want you to go?

There's not one moment
I'd erase.
You are a guest here now.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

I have never known a trip more bittersweet, more full and yet filled with such aching emptiness at the same time. 

I have never laughed more than I have this week in the last three months, and I have never known I could feel so much like I am breaking apart at the same time. 

I hope you know,

I've left my heart with you. 

If this is giving up, then I'm giving up

Driving away from the wreck of the day and the light's always red in the rearview


You know what Charis-
How about you just get your shit together okay?
Just get your shit together. 

Friday, October 17, 2014

"Seek and thou shalt find"

Ave Maria, gratia plena
Dominus tecum ave Maria
Benedicta es tu, Santa Maria
Santa Maria, Ora Ora pro nobis


I've been looking,
So how long til we find some semblance of light?

Sunday, October 12, 2014

When another

That really stings. 


All these steps
To further away


Calls you baby

Thursday, October 9, 2014

In the spirit of honesty

So here's the thing about being sober and sad.
You can still feel everything, in all its realness, and there isn't anything nice warm and fuzzy to make you feel like you can take deal with it.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Teach me how to fix this

Pick it up, pick it all up.
And start again.
You've got a second chance,
you could go home.
Escape it all.
It's just irrelevant.

It's just medicine.
It's just medicine.

But some mornings.

Honest goodbyes

Sink with the tide
Rescue me, if you like
I'll be leaving it all up to you. 


I took a misstep,
And now I don't know where I am. 

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Concrete shores

She has danced along shorelines ten stories too high
Sung lullabies when she is up way past midnight
You've called her weak for all the stumbles she has made
And she knows,
She hasn't the courage to not be afraid.


Hold me?

Friday, October 3, 2014

Come morning light

Sunlight catches the natural highlights in her hair as she looks up, wide-eyed.
She is in a world that is hers, in the middle of her mother's chatter and tinkling laughter over coffee.

The river behind her runs quiet, and around her a cacophony of clinking cutlery, deep hearty laughs that remind her of her father, clattering of children's toys she has no interest in.

She is in a world that is hers;
Right in the middle of her mother's chatter and tinkling laughter
over coffee.

Half moons

My mother always told me-
Don't let the sun set (or rise) on your anger.