I'm not sad
I can't be sad
If I am numb, I can't be sad
But No, I'm not sad tonight after all actually
I got home, sober, although mortifyingly tired from my drinks..
Or actually my drinks which was my dinner..
And then I poured myself water, fried up chicken nuggets,
And sat down to finish writing one of my articles this week.
I realized, that filled me a lot more than most of tonight.