Empty?

I'm not sad

I can't be sad

If I am numb, I can't be sad

Right?

But No, I'm not sad tonight after all actually

I got home, sober, although mortifyingly tired from my drinks..

Or dinner

Or actually my drinks which was my dinner..

And then I poured myself water, fried up chicken nuggets,

And sat down to finish writing one of my articles this week. 

I realized, that filled me a lot more than most of tonight.