Just one mis-step

This is what it feels like:
Like you get to purge all the evil out of you. Like it leaves a fiery, burning trail behind as it comes out.
Like you're clean. And safe.

Unless of course, the point is to not do that.
Unless of course, you feel like you need to stop yourself before you really achieve what you need/ want to.
Unless of course, you catch yourself somewhere in between.

When that happens, you just end up feeling like absolute shit.