Monday, September 29, 2014

In my veins


Oh you're in my veins and I cannot get you out
You're all I taste, at night, 
Inside of my mouth 

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Sunday, September 28, 2014

Stuck in her daydreams

It's too cold outside
For angels to fly


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Didn't they tell you?
Sleep comes in tiny little capsules that smell a bit strange.

Monday, September 22, 2014

Mockingbird

Hush little baby don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright 
Stiffen that upper lip up, little lady, I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night 


I-love-Yous like band-aids trying to hold all the broken together. 

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Anchor

There is hope in the promise of the cross
You gave everything to save the world You love
And this hope is an anchor for my soul

Monday, September 15, 2014

Where'd you go?



I think I've lost sense of time and space and days and weeks. 
I don't know where I am, half the time. What I'm thinking, what I want...
I don't. 
Maybe you can tell me-
You could say
"You look like you need some sleep."
Or
"You could use a nice long swim."
Or
"Here. Here's a hug."

I have conversations purely out of habit. So that I don't trip up on the mess of telephone wires in my head that are running conversations back and forth and all over the place like it's connecting people who are worlds apart. 
Not that I would know what any kind of connection feels like at the moment though. 

My words are cold and empty. They hang in the air and don't mean anything. 
My voice is hoarse from words that have scratched the insides of my throat trying to get out. 
I am tired out from trying to keep track of the world and its spinning and all the different directions it spins. At the same time. 

But mostly, I am numb. 
It's an okay place to be, I guess. 

Sunday, September 14, 2014

So come now, courage

Teach me to be shy.


Cos it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Grace, what have you done?



Too much to make sense of it all
I know that Your love breaks my fall
The scandal of grace, You died in my place
So my soul will live

Oh to be like You
Give all I have just to know You
Jesus, there's no one besides You
Forever the hope in my heart
I wish you enough

"Let us know when you're home k?"

There are people in my life I am so grateful for.

Everyday.

So to my SOAKies,
Hey.
I don't know what I'd do without you.

Xoxo
C

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Hit rewind.

Pause.
Play.
Pause.
Rewind.
Play.
Pause.
Rewind.


If there was one thing in my life I would change,
It'd be the day I chose to say goodbye.


So tell me that you're okay.
That you're happier now.
That if I went down a different rabbit hole,
You would come hurtling into my arms with a force fueled by happiness that knows no bounds, with a light inside you so bright,
You could burn a thousand suns.


Because angel,
You were all those things
And more.