waiting-

To be ready, to feel ready
(Even though I did, at the time)
To feel like I can,
To not be so afraid of myself

Waiting,
To trust myself again.
For someone to trust me enough
So that I can too

Waiting,
For that chance
To love the way I did, for just that week.
For strength,
The strength to hold on-
Not just to my feelings, but the chance to feel like I did.

To know,
That it wasn't, isn't, and won't be wrong.
And know,
That I was meant to. That I was meant to love the way I did,
And that I am meant to, again, one day.

So
I will wait.